Monday, October 13, 2008

Maybe a New Horizon

I've been really depressed lately I guess it is. At first I tried to blame it on something physical. Then decided I was stressed. Then figured I must be depressed. Not really sure why, but I'm pretty positive that's what it is.

I've now ended two sentences with the word "is" and that's not like me when writing. I decided to post this tonight because I remember one of the last time I was really depressed it took admitting and really opening up about it to be able to overcome it. So I thought tonight, though I've been admitting it to people lately that I feel stressed and depressed, I don't think that's been enough. So I'm going to post this, and see if this might be the step it takes to overcome.

I sure hope so. I'm hating this.

BTW...I've kinda used this blog as one of my confirming factors as to accepting I "must" be depressed....I mean look, this is the longest I think I've ever gone without blogging (i.e. at first I couldn't even remember where to go to login in ORDER to's pathetic, I know). Anyways, it's a symptom of depression to show a lack of interest in things you previously enjoyed. Yeah, that's me and my not writing in my blog (not to mention other things in my life...HA!)

The end.


kilax said...

Realizing it is the first step. Now... on to figuring out what is causing it. And fighting it. Let it all out. Maybe it will help.

Brandon and Dee said...

I am glad that you feel like you can share it. I know that talking about it helps. If you need someone to talk to, please give me a call or email me. I will be praying that you feel better soon. I know you "know" this, but if it doesn't get better soon, maybe a little chemical help is in order. Take care of yourself, do what you need to do to feel better!

ACU35 said...

Come to H town to visit Rebecca and I. We can go sky diving!