...that I'm bipolar.
Don't get me wrong...I'm not saying that is bad, but I just didn't know I could change emotions and states of being so quickly until tonight!
Let me explain...
So I wasn't aware that I had a guy situation to deal with until I got a phone call when I got home today from a friend of mine. And while I'm not going to explain the guy situation right now, I will say I wanted to some opinions on the matter from some friends, because I sure don't know anything about guys...HA!
So I ended up talking to SEVERAL friends online tonight...many of whom just happened to IM me and my situation came up...
I found that I was cracking up talking about it with some friends, while at the same time I would switch over to IM a different friend only to find myself getting depressed and frustrated thinking about it. Interestin' huh? HA!
It was so weird though how it would come over me. I'm not kidding...there were SEVERAL times tonight I was laughing so loudly I kept getting looks from my family. And then I would get into another conversation about it and find myself feeling so ugly and hating the thought of guys...HA!
Basically what I tied it down to tonight is that I hate talking about my hair and clothes. I mean I pretty much hate talking about dating period, but i hate having to think about dressing up and doing something about my hair.
Even if I don't like the thought of dates all that much, I don't mind talking about it, but when we had gotten to the part of talking about clothes and hair I lost it emotionally...not crying, but I just couldn't do it. For once i had to ask someone to change the subject when I was chatting online. I honestly don't think I've ever had to do that, though I get it from folks a lot...HA!
And while I hated having to say it, I just didn't want to talk about it.
Anyways, luckily someone else had IMed me then and I ended up laughing again with them, so quickly my emotions were changing again.
So I still don't know what to do about this guy situation. Honestly, I'd like to ignore it and imagine none of it is going on, but I'm sure the person that instigated it will see to it that that doesn't happen...HA! Why do some of my friends have to be so adament about hooking me up with people...HA!
So, I want to end with some of the funny and some just plain interesting tidbits from several of my different IM conversations tonight...
Me: making decisions about what to do about going out with some dude my friend is trying to set me up with.
Friend #1: well is he smart? he's gotta be smart, you'll be bored
[I thought that was so funny that that was the FIRST thing out of her when I brought up that I was having a guy situation...HA! I don't know what that means that she would say that, and so quickly, but I find it funny!]
Me: i'm being told i'm in the prime age for sex right now. that is what the other person i'm IMing with is telling me. HA HA!
Friend #2: Wow... i thought a woman was at her sexual prime at the age of 35 and a boy at 18
Friend #2: i'm sorry...but you will NEVER find a friend as cool as me ;)
Friend #1: if it's your first time, it could be the smallest ever, and you would think it's huge...unless you use toys....lets not go there
[I wont' go into details about that one...HA HA! And no, we didn't go 'there' and no, I don't use toys, incase you were wondering...HA!]
Me (to Friend #1): yeah...lately i've thought....i need to just be more of a whore
Friend #1: i want you to be happy
Me: but i am happy...most of the time
Friend #1: good, that's all that matters
Friend #1: one last piece of advice...don't go looking for him.... he'll find you when you least expect it
Me: and THAT is what i live my life as each day
Friend #1: he won't show up with a ribbon tied around his neck, but he will become routinely involved in your everyday life, more than likely
Me: guys are too easily judgemental on looks i think
Friend #3: as a guy, i know looks can be important to a lot of people, but i wouldn't say it's something 'all' guys share
Friend #3: so what do you think you're going to do?
Me: honestly...i don't know...HA...I'm just enjoying making this blog! Although i don't feel like it is my typical "blog quality"...so i don't know if i'm going to like it once i get done, but part of me doesn't care...HA!
Friend #3: you know you're a serious blogger when you care about the 'quality' ;)
Friend #4: any other big life decisions you need to make?
Friend #4: Okay, well here's my advice: no perms, ever. No boys who wear polka dots. Daily showers.
Me: HA HA...YES...I'm good to go now! ;)
Friend #4: As you can tell, I'm still searching for a successful life formula...not quite there yet, lol
Friend #4: if you're ever feeling bad about your dating life, I'll tell you some of my stories...you'll feel better fast.
These conversations were all very interesting and some quite hilarous, but this last piece was probably my favorite laugh of the night...
Friend #4: You never know, he could turn out to have really big private parts, lol!
[HA! THat was in reference to how I made a joke earlier in the conversation about private parts...HA! But since this is my blog I get to put whatever parts of the conversation I went in here...HA!]
I love my friends! There's nothing more fun than a night of chatting it up with old buddies! Matter of fact, most of these people are peole I haven't talked to in a while, and the most recently time I've seen any of them was back around Homecoming I think for Friend #2...the others longer. HA! Good friends though who are there for me to bounce ideas off and get advice from! Thanks!