Overwhelmed!

Oh my gosh! I'm SOOOO overwhelmed (with blog ideas, that is) right now!!

You wouldn't believe the number of sticky-notes and scratch paper scattered around my computer here that have "blog ideas" listed on them! That's my problem! I LOVE to think things out and the only thing I probably like better than that is sharing my thoughts on things with others! HA! Especially in the blog fashion where it is optional to be read. This way use don't have to read unless you're interested yourself!

Unfortunately I get ALL excited about blogging EACH and EVERY night (seriously) then something either comes up, or I know I don't have the time left in my night that is needed to yield the type of blog I know a LOT of these ideas need to be produced in. Sooo...since I fear I'm unable to produce any of these blogs tonight because of time restrictions (I TRY to make my bedtime on weeknights at midnight), I'm going to list the ideas I have for blogging soon (this is sort of a way for me to promise I'll blog on them, because I'm a woman that does her BEST to keep her word):

• saying "I Love You"
• hugs
• the topic of human exorcism (sp?) which was covered on a Dateline special tonight...WHOA..seriously, that was VERY interesting and TOTALLY sparked some thoughts for me (just a preview, I don't believe in it!)
• my views on going out and getting drunk
• "I'd dedicate my first book too..."
• comment on the "Five Friends Every Woman Should Have" article in May's issue of "O" magazine (that's Oprah's magazine)

and the one I've REALLY been wanting to do the last few nights, but haven't been able to because I fear this one will be long because much explanation will be required is...

• Living a satisfying life without religion

Gosh, I'm really excited about getting those particular thoughts onto paper (as I know I have some readers who are curious to hear them). So I really hope to get to that one soon...sorry it has just taken so long, with all my school stuff and all at the end of the semester it is just keeping me too busy.

Finally, some blog maintenance I'm hoping to do really soon is provide some links on the side of my blog for some of my FAVORITE blog entries from the past. I have TONS of blog throughout this blog (as well as my old blog) and it is hard to skim through them to find interesting ones, and since I know I have gotten some new readers recently, I'd like to provide fast access to some of what I consider to be my better blog entries....

So...until next time...keep your feet on the ground and keep your web-browser coming back here! ;)

What a day...

Okay…I try to avoid the “here’s what I did today” blogs….i do my best to write blogs that are more interesting (in my opinion) to read…ones that might be able to challenge my readers to think about something a little differently than before possibly, but I just HAVE to blog about my happenings of the day because it was just a different sort of day…HA! It wasn’t bad, just different…..some parts funny…some cool…and some just weird…

• First…went to work this morning. Was working on some more of my Excel data entry and stuff I’ve been working on for the big boss man, and I was having to produce some graphs of some of the information in the worksheets. So I had made this first graph and for the life of me I couldn’t get it to label the data that was on the X-axis (like each individual bar on the bar graph). So when my friend Dawn came in and was talking to me I thought I’d try to ask her if she knew how to do it, but she said, “No, I’ve messed with that exact same thing before for hours before and can’t figure out how to make it do it.” So we were just talking for a minute when Dennis walked in. Well Dennis is the companies contracted “computer guy.” You know, the guy that comes in and gets paid TONS of money an hour to fix all the computer problems in the whole office, and he looked at my graph and was unable to figure it out too. Of course, me being a determined person, I started looking at it some more once he left and figured it out about 5 minutes after he left…HA! And it was actually not even in the section he was telling me to look in! Yes, don’t worry, Dawn was quick to remind me to take note of the money I’m getting paid per hour and then think about what Dennis gets per hour! ;)
• After work I had to run to Wal-Mart before school to get chapstick since I ran out last night (and I called my uncle Kip and he wouldn’t bring me any over! DANG!). Not only did I get my chapstick but I also bought my first issue of “O” magazine! Yes, that’s Oprah’s magazine and can I tell you this issue is a good one! It is their 5th anniversary issue and it comes with a free insert book that is a collection of Oprah’s “Things I know for sure” thoughts…I wanted that the most because it made me think of my blogs and I want to read it and see if it is like stuff I like to blog about. My opinion on things and just random stuff on life in general.
• In my 2 o’clock class we had a guest speaker who was talking about federal laws and stuff on performing research which REALLY made me second guess my thoughts on doing the thesis option at the end of my Masters as well as second guess ever going for my doctorate. =(
• Around 4:15 PM in my 2 o’clock class the tornado sirens started going off outside because there were tornados around Arlington so we got outta class early and had to go congregate on the first floor of the building. HA! It reminded me of two times: elementary school and tornado drills, of course! And then of the last tornado watch I was in which I think was my sophomore year when at ACU. Us girls in Sikes all had to congregate in the halls on the first floor for like 25 or 30 minutes. It was cool though because that was when Jackie Beth introduced me for the first time to Erin, who would become one of my roommates for the next two years! How cute…we met during a tornado drill….HA!
• Then after the tornado drill passed a bunch of us from class went up to our professors office to get our papers back that we were suppose to get back at the end of class. As he was passing them out to us in the hallway he was just handing them back not saying anything till he got to me and goes, “I need to talk to you”. So of course I’m think, “Score! He wants to buy my research proposal off me and use it for his own!” ;) Whelp…once I finally make it through the line of people that wanted to ask him questions about their papers, I get in his office. The first thing he says to me is, “You write very well.” And he starts flipping through it (as I’m thinking….hmmm…I might sell it to him for $400! HA!) Then he starts pointing out sections and saying this was very well written. He of course had PLENTY to flip through, since it was a 40-page paper. Then he gets to this one page that he had marked a lot of red on and goes, “This part is all written in past tense and proposals aren’t suppose to be in past tense, they are a plan so in future tense. This is like it is from a study that has already been done before.” So by this point my train of thought has changed from “$400”, to “oh boy…I’m gonna have to go defend myself to the dean for being falsely accused of plagiarizing!!!!” Of course I kept cool because what was also running through my head was “well, if I get kicked out of school for being falsely accused of plagiarizing, I can always take up a career in writing. I mean how good must I be if I write so well that I’m accused of plagiarizing when I HONESTLY didn’t!?! HA!” Whelp, I was able to convince him that I honestly had written it, and he did end up saying, “Well I’m glad you’ve explained this to me because I knew from class that you are a really good student, so I believe you and trust you now.” Uhhh…thanks…I guess. Sucks when you have to convince people when you are being accused of something you didn’t do. But hey, he did continually tell me how good of a writer I am! Whether that was for his case to try to prove I plagiarized or not I’ll never know, but I take it all as a compliment! ;)
• During my TOTALLY boring 6 PM class I took advantage of being on my laptop with wireless internet connection—AIM! I chatted with around 6 or 7 people during the class…one being a friend I hadn’t talked to in a LONG time! We did some catching up and it was great! However she did ask me at one point, “You dating anyone?” Which should tell you how long it’s been since we’ve talked…let’s face it, it’d been so long she had forgot who she was talking too….HA!
• Finally, I got to head home at around 8:30ish. That was when I was in the lets call and talk to folks I haven’t talked to in a while mood. Unfortunately, the first called individual was out with some friends, so she couldn’t talk. The second I got a voicemail on. The third had to go and said they’d call back. The fourth NEVER answers my calls (voicemail): have I mentioned how I think my best friend from high school has no interest in being friends anymore??!!? However the fifth person, who I’d been meaning to call for a few days, curious if they were going to Abilene also for graduation, was the winner! It was GREAT to talk to her again and we talked for about 20 or 25 minutes!

Monday's Picture!

[Give this picture it's best caption! Either come up with a unique/fun caption for this picture or tell what you think is going on in the picture! Tomorrow I'll pick the best response! LEAVE A COMMENT (anyone can leave a comment, you don't have to have a blog)! I don't care if you're someone I don't know, someone I do know, or someone I'm not suppose to know that reads my blog all the time (secretly of course...HA!) Have fun!]

Two Random Thoughts

Two random thoughts to consider. One that I’ve had on my mind for several days now and one that I thought up today.

First, I’ve been thinking about this one for a while:
Why did chopsticks not catch on around the world? Seriously, I’m sure they were around before forks and spoons. I mean I haven’t done any in-depth research on chopsticks, but I would just assume two wooden sticks were around before molded metal was. I mean, yeah, maybe we all (as in the folks that don’t use chopsticks) think they are difficult to eat with, but have you ever seen an Asian eat with them? They eat with as much ease as you and I. I mean come on….chopsticks are SOOO much cheaper to produce, and think about how much it would save you when buying eating utensils as a wedding gift!

Second, I thought about this just a little bit ago:
Have you ever thought how much life or friendships are like a big ol’ cockroach? I mean think about it. For that cockroach, one wrong move and BOOM…he is flipped over on his back and then he’s a goner. How often in life are we THAT close to making one wrong move and POOF….being a goner??! Think about driving…I’ll never forget the when my youth minister growing up told us how close we are to death each and everyday when we get in a car. Think about how you are within inches of passing cars, especially on-coming cars, that could instantly kill you with one wrong move. Look at friendships. Though they won’t “kill” you, think of how one wrong move in a friendship can ruin the whole friendship. Whether it be saying the wrong thing, or doing the wrong thing, or lying about something, etc. Speaking of lying about something, that’s another cockroach scenario….isn’t it funny how saying just one lie can ruin someone’s trust in you. Just that one wrong move, that one lie doomed your established trust.

Okay…just thought I’d share those and see if you have any comments on the matters.

FEAR FACTOR in Dallas!

There is going to be a Fear Factor casting call in Dallas tomorrow (April 23rd) at the Dave and Busters in Dallas (off Walnut Hill I believe).

HOW EXCITING IS THAT!?!?!?

My old roommate Sarah called me IMMEDIATELY when she heard about it!! She was like, “You SOOOO have to go try out!!!” I laughed and was like, “Uhhh…too bad I can’t swim!” HA!

What a shame…if I could swim I would seriously consider going and trying out! But when you are almost guaranteed a swimming event as one of the three obstacles I’d be screwed (life jacket or not)!

Soooo…for anyone else that is in town or wants to come to town and try out, I believe the casting call is from 11 AM till 4 PM.

GO FEAR FACTOR!!!!

Random Stuff

Sorry so many of my recently blogs haven't been real "deep" or "thought provoking"....I will rationalize and say it's because I've been too busy lately, but who CAN'T say that, right?

And unfortunately, this blog isn't going to be worthy of some of these recent AMAZING comments I've had about my blog:

"I forgot how much I enjoy visiting your blog. You have some real interesting stuff on there."

"So you should definately write a book or compileyour blogs into a book!!! Reading them just amazes meeverytime! I don't know if you watch Sex and The Cityor not, but Sarah Jessica Parkers character on thereis a columnist for a newspaper and she compiled someof her articles into a book and just reading yourblogs make me think of that!"

"Whenever I read your blogs I want to comment, but I usually cannot think of something intelligent enough to say in response. It is as though whatever I have to say would not do justice for such a great site. However, because I appreciate the praise-filled comments you leave for me, I will do my best in expressing my admiration. Your writings are always so very enlightening and inspiring!"

These have made me proud to log into Blogger each time, knowing that what I say is going to be read and might make someone give something a little more thought than they previously had. So after receiving great words of praise such as those, can you not feel the pressure rising?!?! HA!

It's funny how many post-it notes I ALWAYS have around with "blog ideas" written on them (and that's not to mention how many ideas I get while in the shower or in bed and too lazy to get outta bed to write them down--though I normally get up and jot them down...HA!) So...with some of these, I don't think I'll EVER get around to blogging about them in the depth I'd like, so many of them are going to be included below simply as thoughts that have been running through my head, that even though they aren't an entire blog subject (though they totally could be), they can still hopefully make ya still think about them...give ya something to ponder. The only exceptions that I plan to blog about in full form soon (hopefully) which will not be mentioned below are the topics of "Saying 'I love you'" and "Hugs". Those I believe deserve their full form blogs! ;)

Also...below will just be some random things that have happened lately.

• Today I was leaving for school and was pulling out of my street and noticed this big scary looking black dog on the street over from us. I remember thinking, "Phew, good thing it was on that street loose and not on ours when I had to come out and get in my car to leave." Then I looked one last time and realized, "CRAP...that's OUR big black dog!" and then looking a yard away, "CRAP and there's our big scary brown dog!" HA! Of course when I was trying to round them up the big black lab thought it would be funny to lift his leg on my cars tire...as I yelled at him and the mailman down the street watched!
• Once I finally was on my way to school I looked down to catch my odometer hit 75,000 miles! I bet you'll never guess how many miles this sucker had on it when I got it. Remember, I have had it for less than a year...i got it on July 6, 2004.
• I filled up my car today with gas on the way too school too. It cost me $34.00 (@ 2.12 a gallon). That's the largest total I've had to pay for gas in my car since buying the car....geez! And to think...i have a car...a Camry...not an SUV...those folks must be passin' out at the pump!
• I've been trying a new thing lately. I'm trying to remember to drink a glass of milk each night before going to bed. I haven't drunk near as much milk over the past 5 years (since having gone off to college) as I used too and should. It isn't that I don't like milk, I have no problem with it...I just don't like to spend the money on it, and normally just drink water or lemonade most the time anyways. However, I'm taking this new "habit" into my life with a new view. Instead of how in the past I've viewed things (and how I think MOST people view new "habits" in life....such as New Year's Resolutions) by noting the days I forget or simply not do the "habit" I'm going to not worry about the days I've missed and instead think of the times I HAVE performed the "habit". Why is it that we always focus on the negative. Example: new years resolution--to exercise more. "Crap...i didn't exercise last night, or the night before, so i might as well not do it tonight either." So in the end you quit. Or, "Whelp, I didn't drink my glass of milk the last three nights because I was out too late, got home and forgot. We were out of milk last night, etc..." Instead, "way to go me! I didn't get to drink my milk the last three nights, but I'm having it tonight, so maybe I can pick back up on it again starting tonight!"
• Isn't it funny how people can be such control freaks?!! Like some people get all panicked if they are not in control. Like some people always have to have the television remote. That isn't such an extreme case, but think about how many people you know (or maybe you) that won't use the cruise control on their car even on a LONG trip because they like to always be in control of the car and feel using the cruise control takes them out of control.
• Is it possible to be TOO smart? Well, I don't think it is possible to be TOO smart, but I do think it is possible to be smart to the extent that it can cause you problems with yourself as well as with others. Here is too examples. 1) with others, you might be "smart" to the extent that you don't think anyone else is right but yourself, so you can be rather close-minded, as well as extremely hard to talk to (even annoying sometimes!) and 2) with yourself, you might be so much of a thinker and so "smart" that while your heart might want you to go in one direction, your mind can't be convinced of it for one reason or another. Like no matter how badly you want to believe something, your mind is convinced that you can't believe it for one reason or another. (If you need a more specific example of this one I can give it to you...i have personal experience with this one! HA!)
• "Depression is anger turned inward." I got that off an Oprah episode not too long ago and I have it written on a post-it to discuss it. Hmmmm....I can't say I've had much experience personally with experiencing depression, however I went though a state of bereavement after losing a friend not too long ago and with bereavement can come depression, so while I was "depressed" I suppose it was some anger about the situation I was feeling inwardly. I was dealing with the "If i'd only's" and the "why did you have to die" and the "it's not fair" and etc. Those were all anger I suppose....hmmm....I'll have to think about this one more...
• This is an interesting quote I wrote down from a movie I watched for the first time recently: "But as one gets older, one's fears subside. What becomes more and more important is to be known. Known for all that you were during this brief stay. How sad it seems to me to leave this earth without those that you really love the most never knowing who you really were." (The Bridge Over Madison County) I've gotta say...it is important to let people know who you really are. One should let people love them for who they are, not who they pretend to be.
• Oh dang....going through these post-its I found yet another TWO post-its....it was a long thought, I ran outta room on one of them....that are about a topic that I think I need to save for it's own blog. I can not give it justice in a "bullet" on this blog. It is on the topic of how one can live a satisfying life without religion. HA! I know a lot of you are thinkin'....are you kiddin' me! HA! Like I said, this topic can't be conducted in a minimal effort!

So, that's some thoughts for now....but I'll tell you what...with those three big topics that I refused to cover in this blog, why don't you leave me a comment and tell me which one you are most interested in hearing my opinion on.

1. Saying "I Love You"
2. Hugs
3. Living a satisfying life without religion

Until next time....keep your feet on the ground and keep reaching for the stars! ;)

Stole This One From Linds

[Disclaimer: This suvery/question thingys hsa some REALLY dorky questions on it, but it is really different, so i went ahead and posted it anyhow. Trust me, there are some on here that i'm like....are you kiddin' me! HA! AND...i'm gonna see if i can do this without leaving any of my own feedback...though some of these I SOOOO want to be able to comment on, but i'm gonna see if i can do it without commenting!]

Directions:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold/underline the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold/underline is false.

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is USUALLY the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I have an applebotoom
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart (tee hee hee!)
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid all the time
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scars
26. I need money right now
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast sometimes
29. I chew gum when I sleep a lot of the time
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the US
34. I shave my legs on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot.
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular to an extent
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my blog
58. I try not to hate anyone
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington (????????)
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in a superior being
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything that I know of
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing the new "Fat Albert" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on blogger
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor
88. I enjoy some country music
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Britney Spears' "Toxic"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment
100. I'm gay.