why

why is it that it doesn't matter how many friends you have...and you can honestly have a ton, that when you are in a not so good mood and all you want to do is talk with someone it's like you only have like 1 or 2 people you really would want to talk with?

like i'm down and it's late and i wanna just talk to someone and get crap out, but then there is the side of me that doesn't do that. i don't call people when I am the one having the problem. how weird would that be to get a call from me and me wanting to talk serious and me being down. that's not how it goes, so i don't call. plus who wants to hear about that anyways. and honestly, there isn't anything they can do for me, though maybe talking is enough....

okay...i'm done...

bed.

it'll be a new day tomorrow and i'll be happy again...promise!